tried too much

so i'm in my room, with nothing else to do but this. i'm listening to secondhand serenade, not because of him or you. i give up. i love you, i love him but now i just can't do anything about it. but i can say freely it's over. for good becasue i know if you really wanted me as much as you say you want me you'd be here outside my door waiting for me to finnaly come out and all you can really do is grin at my glare. and before you pull on the he doesen't love you heartstring i know sweetie. listen up falling in reverse. really it's all my fault? please do tell me about how i broke your heart and left you for him. because if i had left you for him i'de be in a relationship already with him or someone else. have you ever noticed that i never date? never have. only once before and he was for three days. it was because you were so posesive that i grew used to being with one person. i don't know when you're going to stop trying to make me feel like shit about this. think about it this way, you can have erica now.i know for a fact you liked her better than me. i could see that all the while trying to get me off your back. so what i want now is to say thanks for showing me that i'm unwanted and unwantable to you. i guess i always knew that but i never stopped trying though. and now i have givin up and i see jacob's point. bella: "jake i can't be happy without him." jacob: "thats because you never tried. you spent all of your energy holding on to him. i think if you just let go of him you would see that you could be happy." i realized that i thought of you as my edward before and like bella completly dissagreed to this statement. but now, i realize now that he was right, he alwas was. so now if there is anything more to say on the matter. . . . . .it's up to you now. say what you have to say and tell me how i hurt you and i'll work something out.