. . . of all the lies you ever told, 'i love you' was my favorite one! i see all of the girls you love and i rarely see my name let alone only my name. i know thats what you say and you may mean it but it never has seemed that way. i sat and waited for you to come back and when you did i braced myself to be broken again. i hurt myself so you can't. i tried so hard to patch all of this up and you never stopped to listen. one of my rules is never walk of on the only person who has never given up on you. they may give up on fixing you someday and i finally have. i've never given up on anyone before.not even him, whose hated me since sixth grade. i finnaly gained his friendship and i'm not willing to let go of that.you almost ruined that for me purposely and happily until you saw i had had enough. i'm not perfect but i put all of my heart into all i do. and i tried. i can't try any harder than i did. i'm not angry, just tired. tired of all of the crap i put myself through, tired of slowly killing myself over a lost cause, tired of trying to let go of him so i could go back to you although i know for a fact if i tried to do this again i would get hurt even worse. i can't try anymore. i give up. are you happy? i never thought i was possible to break me, but you did. thanks for proving me wrong. oh and i'm not going anywhere. you're stuck having me around whether you want it or not.