i have no clue. i'm trying to figure out what i did. if it was bad i can understand that she would be mad and try to destroy my life. if she would stop and tell me, if i find the judgement to be fair, i will willingly take her anger. but i think i have a right to be upset until then. the one moment that i'm not slowly dying of heartache for her, the one time that i can show that, yes, i do care for someone else, she gets upset. but it seems that i can't show that i'm sad when she goes along, dating other people, looking at me and basically saying that she doesn't care that i'm sad. i can't be angry right now, i don't know why. sometimes i wish i could. i wish i could walk to her and say "thanks for showing me i mean nothing to you. thanks for letting me know that i'm worthless. sorry i came into your life and became a problem. so hears to teenage romance and not knowing why it hurts like hell." but i can't. even as anger flares when she won't speak to me. even as hurt courses through me like a venom when she looks at me like i'm a piece of crap. i'm reposting this song because it's pretty much how i feel.