i can't take it anymore. i've tried. i really have. last night it all hit me, nothing i try to do is ever going to work. nothing i do has worked. i tried to stop loving him, to stop loving her. to stop loving altogether. it always kills me. all of it hit me last night i cried myself to sleep when i realized all of it, a feeling of hopelesness settled over me. i give up. the only thing i've ever given up on before.

forever is fake. together forever is even faker compared to that. it's like believing in fairy tales. i just cant take it . . .it's not something most people can understand. people who make things like this really don't get it. it breaks my heart to realize that the person, the people i love will never love me the way i love them.