well now that i know. . .

maybe now the pain will stop. now that i know the pain has faded. i guess it's okay to be sad but also to be relieved. thanks to all the time i took to think about this, i can finnaly lay back and just let it wash away. all of the pain, all of the saddness, i can relieve myself of it. i'm just going to let go, to try and be happier. it feels like. . . walking through a feild, not knowing there was broken glass at the end. you step lightly, barefoot liking the feel of the grass until the glass cuts into the soles of your feet. the next week you forget and do it again. well sooner or later you remember to wear shoes, the journey through the feild is less pleasent but you don't get hurt. so clean up the glass and let other people walk through. at least now i know. so things like this don't need to happen again, but still. . .

In the end

Everyone ends up alone

Losing her

The only one who's ever known

Who I am

Who I'm not, who I wanna be

No way to know

How long she will be next to me

so now what? i know that she's happy, the only problem is, i'm not. not yet. i just hope she stays happy and that her new girl loves her just as much as i do. thats all i'm asking for.