music

i listen to a lot of music. the music can change my mood in a heart beat or can match my mood. i use it to cope with my life. i've done a lot of stupid thimgs in my life. i can freely agree with megan that i've made quite a few mistakes while she was around. like letting myself hurt for so long. but now i can smile and sing freely although the part of me that was hurting is still there. i can still feel it abut now can disregaurd it. looking back it's funny how i sat there looking dead while i sat in my misery. i know how many peolpe saw it and they have recently seen it. true i did feel somewhat dead but then i smiled and my world was turned around. i still am sad but i can focus on the good not the bad and have a lot to do to get better. i've thought long and hard and will now trust more freely and smile for real more often. (still will not trust until i'm sure they are trustworthy*(gage)*) watch me sing and dance. see my happiness as i've healed over all but one part that i'm not sure i want healed. the love left in me i don't feel should like it should be removed.